Day 66 - Thoughts

As I sit here waiting for the realtor to call, I got to thinking.... I did not start this blog to show off, or to be proof of how big or tough I can be...and I am not by any means putting too much focus on this workout; in fact, my main focus right now is getting back to where I left off 4 years ago (mentally and financially)... After all, I am getting close to 30 and I never thought I would be in the living situation I am in at this point in my life (guess this is what happens when you constantly sacrifice for someone else for 3 years)... BUT, when I get a comment from someone saying I have no physical improvement from this workout and suggests that I try harder, it stings.
I always put 100% effort into things, because if you're going to do something you might as well do it right...  For a split second after reading that comment, I thought..."Well, maybe I am wasting my time with this..."  But no, I'm not.
People start P90X for different reasons; for me, it gives me a chance to clear my head every night and feel like I'm accomplishing something.  Coming home after an 11 or 12 hour workday to work out for 90 minutes isn't easy, but I'm FINALLY putting myself first and doing something for me.  I don't spend money on manicures or massages, I don't drink or do drugs to unwind - working out is my escape. I don't care that I don't look like some kind of body builder after 60 days.
And for the record, I DO feel an improvement... and the fact that I started with 3 lb weights and now I'm using 12's for the same exercises makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something.  I need that right now because even though I live in a house full of people who care about me I'm the loneliest I've ever been in my life and if I have Tony Horton to keep me company while motivating me every night and I can unwind and feel myself getting stronger that's what matters.

6:02 pm Update -

Plyometrics
Max HR:  173
Avg HR:  135
Calories Burned:  412